Everybody wakes up, not from a long sleep but a tiny little nap. Except me, I cant sit still in my deskchair, strolling through the office seeing the night turn into day. The buildings doom up from the dark mysterious night. Everything is blurry like my mind at that time. 6 people , 24 hours later waiting for that one phonecall to get back to work. The night between wednesday and thursday dissappeared, its becoming a tradition. Third time in 3 weeks, this must be a good one. And in a way it certainly was. Although it took me some days to get to that fact.
Blurry, that was the month of April with an extension into May. All of this was new for me. From tiny little steps into giant ones for me as an architect. It all started 1st of April where I changed jobs. Now 35 days later its hard to remember that day. A lot of things have happened since then, all of them into high speed. Sure is that I enjoyed every single thing that was thrown into my arms.
Blurry, that was my daily morning walk to the office. My brain still non-active, I strolled along the boulevard guiding me along these tall office-building to drop me into the elevator. 35min to read some emails, to tweet and stay that tiny little bit connected with the world. Uncertain what would happen that day i get into that bright eye-killing elevator to start my day on the 10th floor.
35 days flew by. 35 long days. 35 intense days. 35 mind-blowing days. Even telling everybody here about these days make my mind blurry again. These days made me realize a lot of stuff that was unknown for me before. Conclusion of this month must be: the more you learn the more you realize that there is even more to learn after that.
With money comes responsability. The days of being young are over. I have to come up with decent work, solutions and take my responsability. Grab whatever you can. Take it, hold it, dont give it away. It makes you grow in this big cruel world. I jumped into it, there is no way back.
Its not over. Writing this on a saturday was a safe bet. On sunday there wont be time. Tomorrow 11 o`clock this story got repeated once more. What will happen tomorrow, I dont even know. Will it be good? Most certainly but not when you have to go through it. The feeling comes after a few week or maybe a few days if your brain to decide to let it go for a while and takes that necessary rest you so desperately want and need.
